i moved on.

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Top things I wish I can change about myself

• Be more positive
• not to compare myself to others
• not taking people for granted
• not let things get to me
• let go of him
• let go of him
• let go of him
• let go of him
• tell him.
• and.. mostly. the fact that i fall to hard easily.

I'm the kind of girl who feels ugly without makeup,

and when she has a bad hair day, her whole day is

bad, who is a lot more self conscious then you would

think. The type of girl who hates her own voice and

thinks she's really annoying. The girl who has a huge

heart, but gets used a lot. The girl who always wants

to have real friends, but always seems to choose bad

ones. The kind of girl who just wants to be loved by

you and accepted unconditionally.

sometimes it's tough being a girl. if you hate a

pretty girl, people will think you're jealous. if

you like an older guy, people will call you a slut.

whenever you get into an argument with your

best friend, no one will care and say, "oh, you'll

be friends tomorrow." and when you fall for

the right person, everyone else thinks he's

wrong for you.

her eyes scream with the pain you caused her,

all the lies you made her believe, all the hurt you caused her.

& still to this day she loves you like nothing ever happened.

She's strong enough to walk

away, but broken enough to look back.

Day14: the person who caused you the most pain

Hm... pain for more than years..

no happiness since years..

wet pillows..

the person..

who makes me the happiest person on earth.

causes me the most pain.

every word you say counts.

every action you do counts.

please stop.

im dying.

im still alive.

but im barely breathing.

LIFES A BITCH.

Have you ever felt like you just want to die. and just fucking rot. i cant stop fucking crying.

the one thing..that matters to you most. gone.. is absolutely painful.

there are no words to explain.

. dhfsdioh..

icant speak.

iocant.

do anything.

i dont feel like talking to anyone.

..

basically. just.

fuck.

life.

basically. yea.

lifes a dick.

and lifes a bitch.

........................................

just wantr to.........

fucking.

kill.

bitches.

envy.

kills.

i. just.

cant.

do this anymore.

i dont deserve half the shit.

i .

just.

cant.

life isnt fair.

i never get to be happy.

NEEVER WAS I.

in the past 3 years...

i just .

dont.know.

anymore.

Day13: the person you hate the most

I HATE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH.

YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND.

but at the same time,

I cant help but to love you.

YOU ABSOLUTELY PISS ME THE FUCK OFF.

and smile and laugh so much.

I hate you so much because you exist.

I hate you for taking away my happiness.

Not letting me have anything else in mind.

Such high standards in people.

And always making me being a bitch to other guys.

SO FUCK YOU.

I'm not perfect.

Cutie ;)

I love Leighton and Blake . Theyr'e so gorgeous.

Photo cred: CJAEx (:

Day12: a deceased person you wish you could talk to

( photo from cjae june (: )

There are a few deceased person, whom I wish I could talk to.

And I love them all.

But I wish I could talk to my grandmother

( my mom's mom )

I never got a chance to talk to you

Or meet you

But mama talks a lot about you

Now I know where mama got her mom qualities from

Mama says a lot of things that you would do for her

and how you take care of her

Anyways, I wish I could have met you .

And I wish you could have seen mama graduate, and get married

and meet Lawrence too.

If I day before I wake.

There are a lot I want to do.

But here are a few:

• Visit Europe
• Get even more crossfaded
• Skydive
• Bungeejump
• Get on tv
• Punch some bitches
• Learn how to take a compliment.
• Learn not to say yes when you really mean no.
• Fall deeply in love -- helplessly and unconditionally
• Spend a night in a haunted house
• Drive across America from coast to coast.
• Sleep under the stars.
• Accept yourself for who you are.
• Go up in a hot-air balloon.
• Tell him everything.

He's my favorite pain.